I have finally decided to write a blog. As I’m typing this my heart is racing and I want to throw up. I will be exposing myself as I’ve never done before, not physically but emotionally. I’m terrified.
I’m terrified of the judgement. I’m terrified that I won’t be understood. I’m terrified that I won’t be seen. I’m terrified that I will be seen.
That terror is exactly why I need to blog. I’ve spent my first 50 years burying my feelings. This has resulted in a failed marriage, failed familial relationships and failing health. For the next 50 years I’m going to try something different. I’m going to expose my thoughts and feelings to the world.
I’m told that this will benefit me in numerous ways. Come along for the ride and I’ll let you know how it goes…